On Monday, August 24, 2009 at 11 PM EST , a username was registered on the website Tengaged.com. That user was LaQuawnda.
First off, I want to link to my first anniversary blogs, because a lot of what I’d have to say, would be covered there. I never did get to post my second anniversary blog, but good thing I posted 2 for my first, eh?
Anyways, I am not going to go on a big rampage and give shoutouts to a million people like I want to do. My list would be huge, because so many of you are important to me. A lot of you, I admire, but I have never told you so, because that would come across as fake or awkward. Of course, there is a few of you I can’t stand, but compared to 2010 when I left the site, that list is significantly smaller and I could count them on my fingers, if I could even think of that many. To those I left 2010 with on bad terms – chances are, we good now. I know Fiona and I left on bad terms, yet we get along great now. So that’s just one example. Those who I like – I’ve given you shoutouts a million times and hopefully you know what you mean to me.
I never planned on returning to Tengaged. The only exception, I thought, that would bring me back, was an offer to appear in All Stars 2. I know that I’ve only played 3 times and that there are at least 16 people with better track records than I that would deserve it more than me, but I really wanted to be apart of such a cast, if one were to happen. Except, it didn’t happen. Maybe someday, but mahogany was in stars, and not seriously, I told her “Win Stars and I’ll come back to Tengaged. Tell Tengaged that and maybe you’ll get some saves”. Haha. I didn’t think she had a shot in hell in winning, even though Jason always deserved to. But then he did, and I was like “Ugh.. fine May 12th!” and Jason and co. started a #QDay campaign.
My year (almost 2) away from Tengaged was great. My life is completely different from what it was when I left and I am the happiest I’ve ever been. I traveled a lot, met a lot of people, including my fiancé Mackenzie and our adorable child, my ever-enlarging yellow lab, who is more work than Sabrina Raye ever was fictionally. I have the best job and co-workers I could dream of, although the salary could be a lot more generous, but in this economy, I ain’t complaining. I did great staying away, better than I thought. A couple times, I Googled “LaQuawnda” to see what the chatter was about and if people still chatted about me. Surprisingly, there was people who still cared about me that weren’t in my inner circle, so that was nice to see, but I knew my place wasn’t on Tengaged anymore and that my time was up.
Due to mahogany’s campaign, I felt the pressure to log back in. I did. I had a TON of emails, but randomize was a stupid little bitch and most of them were deleted. So if you emailed me during my departure, thanks I guess? I did have Spam, which is just silly, but I can’t bitch, cause I’ve spammed tons of 100 day departees before in my prime. It was good and bad coming back. Good to see the old faces and to meet some good new ones. Bad to see that people still get caught up in the old pointless drama that consumes the site and that quick games have turned the site into a reality show mock-up into just a game, with people battling for karma. TV Star seemed like an impossible goal when I left, now, there is about 150 tv stars. I will never join their ranks, although I guess I gotta respect their tenacity.
Even though I returned, I didn’t spend that much time on here. I half-heartedly did the Race to Black 2, although if you check out my record, I didn’t do that well. It was great being able to rely on my strategically side, which I always thought was my strong suit, instead of my social side, which most of you would probably say is my only talent, which I understand, but really ain’t fair, if you’ve never played with me.
I am not going to belabor the blog any further, but let me just wrap it up by writing even more paragraphs:
Thank you to those who missed me. Thank you to those who believed in me. To those who plussed me and those who felt strongly enough to neg me. To those who supported me in stars, or elsewhere. To those who were brave enough to PM me and try to establish a relationship with me. To those who joked and laughed with me, to those who bitched and moaned and complained with me.
We are all worth something. You may have been told otherwise by someone on this site. But don’t take their negativity to heart. People think that this is a zero-sum world, where in order to gain, you have to take away from someone else. But it doesn’t have to be that way. We can all gain. To those who find glee in putting others down, mocking their gender/sexuality/sex/personality/age/size/appearance/etc., really think about what you’re doing, and use that energy to raise someone up, instead of tearing someone else down. You don’t have to like everyone in this world. But we all can co-exist if you try and at the very least, we can all try tolerating eachother one bit. I mean, there is a reason why Knagaroo never gave Sabrina Raye up for adoption. As much as she hated her daughter, she tolerated her, and I think, even loved her.
On that note, I just wanna say Switchblade Sistahs 4 Lyfe, and may there be another 3 years, although I might not be around to celebrate. Follow me on Twitter! @ LaQuawnda
Trend #Qvoltion and LaQuawnda if u agree with what I said a paragraph above.
I'll leave u wiff dis:
~*~*~BrIcK wAlL, WaTeR Fall
GuRRRRL u tHiNk U No It aLL.
U dOn'T
i dO.
BRICK WALL
WATER FALL
QUAWNDA THINKS SHES GOT IT ALL
BUT SHE DONT
AND I DO
SO BOOM WITH THE ATTITUDE
PEACE PUNCH CAPTAIN CRUNCH
I GOT SOMETHING YOU CANT TOUCH
BANG BANG CHOO CHOO TRAIN
WIND ME UP I DO MY THING
REESES PIECES, 7 UP
MESS WITH ME
ILL MESS YOU UP
three years of my life i'll never get back
three years of expenses i'll never be refunded
three years of hell i'll never find peace
three years of pulling your dirty ass weave lint out of the shower drains
On Monday, August 24, 2009 at 11 PM EST , a username was registered on the website Tengaged.com. That user was LaQuawnda.