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My Story To Share

1stMay 19, 2020 by Kevin0621
After my last blog where I said goodbye to Tengaged for what I thought would be the final time, I was reflecting on why I was leaving the site that I had enjoyed at times and had moved past the toxic points as well at for a year and a half. I've been extremely hesitant to share this blog with the Tengaged public. I hope you all find it in you to have the understanding in what I'm about to say instead of negativity and hate. Anyways, this is my story.

About 7 or so months ago, I met Skimmilk4 in the LKB Survivor Group Game, Season 3, Lesotho. We hit it off immediately. He has a way of words when it comes to the social game. He ended up voting me off, which I quickly got over, and we had a very nice conversation practically the day after. We decided we were going to maintain a friendship. We talked consistently pretty much every or every other day for quite a few months after that, and there were no red flags I was made aware of. I just thought of him as a very social and genuine person. I got a bit too comfortable, and let's just say, I gave away a few pieces of information that I will regret for as long as I shall live. And let me make it known to everyone that what I said is on me. But let me also make it clear none of it was ever sexual, no, that's not up to then what we had spoken about.

About a month later, I spilled a secret to him that I had only told very few people. Now, for obvious reasons, I am going to reveal it here since this is a blog about my experience with someone I thought was my genuine friend. Well anyways........ I revealed to him that I was 12 years old.

Yes, I am aware of the fact that revealing that will most likely get me banned, but it is necessary in the context of this blog. I plan to leave after this anyways. Moving on, that is besides the point.

So the night I reveal this to him, he is very open hearted and gentle, understanding, and etc. We had a very nice conversation as usual and then we headed off. However, this is where things began to take a turn.

Over the next few months, quite a few sexual messages were sent on his behalf. I tried to switch the topic every time he would send them, or just tell him politely that I would like for him not to speak of that stuff. Sometimes he would, or sometimes he would make it into a joke. I'm not sure how long it was after he started sending those, but it was around the same time, he randomly in one conversation sent me a picture of him shirtless and proceeded the picture by saying in a message "My tits!" .......At this point I had felt very uncomfortable and quite frankly a bit offended that he would send that to me knowing my status as a minor, and not someone who he should have been sending that to in any way, shape, or form.

This continued for a couple of months. Mind you there were still genuine conversations within this period, but every time I would talk to him I always felt a little uncomfortable, but I wouldn't confide in him to let him know because I didn't want to put a dent in our friendship. Fast forwarding maybe a month from there, actually quite recently, maybe even about a month or so ago, we were up late at night having a conversation as we often would because I am often a insomniac and will often stay up all night because I just quite frankly can't sleep often. On this night, a group chat was created between myself, Gabe, and our other mutual friend, Washed_Ravioli. This was not for a game purpose, it was just for the 3 of us to talk because we were all friendly. Actually if I remember correctly the original purpose was to settle a debate about whether multis were pronounced "molt-ees" or "molt-eyes". That is irrelevant, however. On this night we talked about our experiences in just life in general. However, also on this night, Gabe was continuously egging me on to reveal my age to Washed, which I had not consented to. It was not his place to tell me what I should do with that information at all. At a certain point the conversation stopped in the group chat and now is where I really realized the other side of Gabe.

On this night, he consistently belittled me and screamed at me consistently in all caps for being selfish and for him being in a one-sided friendship. Meanwhile 1/2 nights I'd be the first one to approach him to talk. He screamed at me from what I believe was 3:00 - 4:30 in the morning before I finally gave up and tried to fall asleep to forget about everything he had just said to me. However, I'd like to go over a few things. During this conversation he consistently in all caps would say "GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE KEVIN I'M DONE WITH YOU" and also comments such as "SELFISH PRICK WHO ONLY THINKS ABOUT HIMSELF." These comments belittled me and he knew that far well. The only thing I hadn't done that night was told Washed_Ravioli my age because I hadn't felt comfortable. He was now coming at me with false accusations telling me every other thing I had ever done wrong in my life. I found myself apologizing to him even though I knew I had nothing to apologize for just to try and salvage our friendship. He would continue to prey on me after every comment.

Less than 48 hours after that, he apologized. I did not find it genuine. He screamed at me consistently for almost 2 hours when he knows I'm not particularly the most tough and emotionally stable person. And I didn't even get a reasoning for the apology. Just a "I'm sorry."

I definitely tried to disconnect myself with him from that point forward. I never realized that what he was doing was truly wrong before all of these new blogs have came out.

I realized after seeing the blogs of The_Kid, Eclipse9, 13bam, and camell22, that what Gabe was doing was truly wrong. He constantly tried to manipulate me into telling him new things, and telling me that he would always care for me and be there for me, when yet he was most likely telling the same to his worst enemies.

I would also like to add that he was giving my personal information and our conversations away to other people that I would have never allowed had he asked. I would also like to congratulate Gabe for pinning me and Washed_Ravioli against each other. Our bond is stronger than ever now because of you and we'll forever have nice conversations talking about how we no longer have to deal with the manipulation you excelled at. We have found our footing and we will not be fooled by you.

I would also like to point out the fact that me and Washed_Ravioli crossed referenced each other, and it turns out, Gabe had revealed my age to him long before the night of the group chat and the screaming Gabe displayed towards me. So, in, other words, when Gabe was screaming at me to tell Washed my age, he had already told him days before without telling me a thing.

One more thing. To the LKB group chat, I am sorry I acted so naïve on Sunday. I tried to defend Gabe because I was unaware of the real situation and you guys had every right to get mad at me for trying to defend a pedophile. I sincerely thank Nikw98 for opening my eyes to what was happening. Without you I don't know if I would truly realize the severity of it and how illegal it really was.

Thank you everyone for reading, -Kevin.

Comments

Dang. Gaslighting you into thinking what you did was wrong. That’s fucked up. Sorry you had to go through this.
Sent by Eclipse9,May 19, 2020
Damn Kevin I'm sorry :(. I will say Washed_Ravioli is pretty freaking amazing and trust worthy to talk to. If you ever wanna talk I'm here! I wouldnt leave the site. Dont let others push you away
Sent by shellbelle,May 19, 2020
Sorry Kevin
Sent by The_Kid,May 19, 2020
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Sent by CalebJustLeft,May 19, 2020
+
Sent by schmooboy,May 19, 2020
This keeps getting worse jeez
Sent by danyyboy67,May 19, 2020
Damn that's rough Kevin.. I'm always here for a chat if you need one!
Sent by AntonB,May 19, 2020
Oh this is fucked up
Sent by Maxi1234,May 19, 2020
Bitch you ain’t no god damn 12
Sent by Holder,May 19, 2020
jesus 12??? now he is an actual pedo oh my fuck
Sent by lmaobrit2214,May 19, 2020
Fuck. thanks for the pedo warning.
Sent by ITZ3THAN,May 19, 2020
holy shit
Sent by mathboy9,May 20, 2020
That’s truly awful having to go through that at such a young age. Thank you for sharing
Sent by Nikkayy,May 20, 2020
Oh wow... It's clearly time to unfriend Gabe
Sent by Tester,May 20, 2020
I’m soo sorry Kevin. :(
Sent by pinkiepie512,May 20, 2020
The fact that he started getting sexual AFTER he learned that you were 12 is what disturbs me the most
Sent by SmoothStalker12,May 20, 2020
@SingSonger since you want to defend the predator, read this
Sent by SmoothStalker12,May 20, 2020
That’s all I wanted you to see, love. How manipulating he has been. You’re a bright individual who just got trapped in the naivety of it all. I hope you and all others affected by this monster get the closure and love and support you all need <3 I’ll always be here to talk
Sent by nikw98,May 20, 2020
holy fk
Sent by Arris,May 20, 2020
Okay fuck this guy lmao
Sent by temponeptune,May 20, 2020
Thank you for sharing your story, im sorry you had to go through that.
Sent by zachbbs,May 20, 2020
Sent by SurvivorFan37,May 20, 2020
Hope u are good now and don't get banned for this :/
Sent by TheDeceiver,May 20, 2020
++++
Sent by ItsAustin,May 20, 2020
Kevin0621 is a TRUE icon for this!!! We don't know each other, but if u ever wanna talk I'm always here for you!!!

I know nikw98 and they are great people to have in your life, unlike manipulative predators

💕💕💕
Sent by bbfan1074,May 20, 2020
Damn
Sent by unkown,Jun 8, 2020
I LOVE BEING 12
Sent by Escapethenight13,Jul 12, 2020

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