This has been a long time coming and honestly it is time for me to just come clean before i implode. People have already caught on and honestly been knew that I am not who I say to be. Clearly because they are correct. I am not what you are seeing. I have said for the past few years that I am 22 years old. Clearly a lie. I am actually 16 years old. I have kept this a very confidential secret for years now and it all started when i was on .es. If people like Flickgamecolin or Lemjam6 remember in my early days on the site I went by my actual name and then throughout i tried to be different people in order to get more attention or make them like me more. It was a bad habit that lasted for years and it is something that needs to stop now.
I held this facade for a number of reasons. I wanted to get away from the real world and what I have been through irl so I created a version of me that is older and more out there. Trust and believe I am exactly the way I am here on the outside too. I did it because I did not want to be left out and when i saw people who were saying well I am 17 to like 25 I thought that I should present myself that way to get more of a friend group.
I am clearly not mature and I still have to grow and put pieces together, but I think for the age I am I have been exposed to many things and I know a lot of things that are going on in the world today, and that I am way beyond my years in terms of knowledge and different aspects of what is happening with certain topics.
It is not healthy for me to keep portraying myself as someone I am not and I need to end it. I understand this will probably run me off the site, but I think that this is for the better of me and this will help me learn from the mistakes I have made and allow me to grow as an individual.
To be clear I am not on the site all day as i got to school 5 days a week for 8 hours. I am actually smart (book wise) but I still have to get my emotions together.
I am sorry to those who will be hurt by this blog I just need to let people know the truth in its entirety.