I figured out that writing my thoughts, feelings and burdens would be a healthy coping mechanism when my brain won't shut up and since I want to make kinda like a blog type series but idk how I'm gonna use tg. Sounds good?
So I haven't gotten that guy out of my mind we literally bumped into each other FOUR times today... FOUR. I know he's doing it on purpose fucking hell he literally sits next to my classroom just to annoy me but I dont fight fair. On Monday im gonna go see a friend whos into the classroom next to him > : ) Two fags can play this game
So the day went great until like 6pm when I got into the overthinking phase of the day and totally ruined my entire day honestly. I started thinking about all the times everyone has disappointed me and that made me feel sad because honestly there are too many times
Also in my life I've wanted 2 guys until now. Both times I somehow got them and then got very bored/disgusted of them so I cut them off. I'm really hoping the same thing happens this time. I sincerely hope that guy has such a disgusting personality that pushes me away so much that I stop thinking about him. But what are the chances we even talk to each other LMFAO
Honestly? They are pretty big. Why? Because I am sure until the end of the year we are somehow gonna become friends. I dont even know how but I just know it. I can totally feel it in my veins.
Also for the past 2 weeks I've been feeling super sad because I just remembered there are a hundred of little gays in the world forced to live in the closet and experience early teenage years different from everyone in this heteronormative world. I cant believe people are this cruel. Honestly some great philosopher once said "The hardest thing to accept is another person's happiness" and I totally agree with that. Fuck humanity
Hopefully tomorrow will be quiet, peaceful day and i won't have that many emotional outbursts but I highly doubt it because I can't get that guy off my mind??? it's getting really serious this year
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So the day went great until like 6pm when I got into the overthinking phase of the day and totally ruined my entire day honestly.
this is such a mood except its earlier sometimes