Do Mormon guys get a thrill out of causing me pain and hurt simply because I am friendly to them and they see me as 'damaged goods'?
Yes, I have disabilities and they are called ADHD and Non-Verbal Learning Disorder and they are quite manageable without medication, but they are also quite permanent. It has taken me a long time to accept that this is the way I am supposed to be and that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me regardless of my challenges; they see me as perfect and beautiful.
Sadly, though, a lot of Mormon men have been falsely led to believe that LDS girls with disabilities are damaged goods and that they only want flawlessly beautiful, perfectly constructed women who will give them many perfect children and be the best eternal mates ever. Over the years, I have seen priesthood-holding brethren openly shun me or treat me quite badly both to my face and behind my back simply because they thought that my friendliness was flirting. They were disgusted with the fact that a 'damaged good' was daring to think they were equal enough to them to see friendships or more than friendships from them.
I've done a lot of good in the world and for myself despite some very saddening personal circumstances I grew up in. I am very strong physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, but I find myself socially weak because all of the times that I try to be social and make friends with guys, the same thing happens over and over. I hate to tell you this, brethren, but part of your priesthood covenants includes being in tune with the Spirit and having the Spirit requires that you conduct yourself in a way that makes the Spirit feel safe dwelling with you.
Do you really think that treating me, a girl with a disability who is very faithful to God, has utilized the Atonement endlessly, and has made a commitment to live a good life both temporally and spiritually, is conducting yourself in a way that the Spirit of God will want to teach you anything? Do you think that I am so broken by my disabilities that God and Christ will not love me and will encourage others not to love me? I have a right to God's love and Christ's healing just as much as everyone else and your prejudiced opinions will not change that; such opinions will only stop the Spirit from wanting to teach you and help you use your Priesthood worthily. Hate keeps the Spirit away, you know?
In God's eyes, all are equal and all are beautiful regardless of whatever challenges they may have. I have been promised that God will deny no blessing to those who are faithful and worthy of them and that promise says NOTHING about disability being a reason why God would deny blessings to me. So why, brethren, do you feel you have the right to treat me as if I am not worthy of whatever blessings the Lord has and wants to give me? You are just as imperfect as me and maybe even more so simply because you burden yourselves with prejudice and you don't see anything wrong with that.
I am worthy of God's love, the blessings He has for me, and the love and healing Jesus Christ has for me no matter what you may think or say. Treating me badly will only make you look bad in the eyes of God and you will have to answer for it. Do you really think that God isn't watching as you shun me, lie to me, and treat me badly both openly and behind my back simply because I am a damaged good in your eyes and I dared address you with friendliness as if I were your equal? God is watching and He will bless me because He loves me and I am worthy and faithful in His eyes.
Why did the chicken cross the road
To get to the idiots house knock knock
Who's there
The chicken
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At a wedding your grandmother pokes you and say your next
But at a funeral you say the same thing to them
