I've been doing the I Ching lately and currently it has communicated to me that I have good character, as in I do the right thing (ie. follow convention). I'm not, however, seen as having character. I don't let people get to know me. This is pretty much true. I think often that if I let people in they will eventually judge me and reject me. Well, the I Ching suggested I just be myself, and that I keep that simple. Wasn't sure what that meant exactly so I looked it up and I found that in meant to not be complicated. This is really difficult for me. I like people to see me as smart and I'm very impish, so I confuse people a lot intentionally. I do the I Ching once a day so the next time I consulted it I asked it how I could not turn people off by being myself. It's suggestion was that, if I was the best me I could be, people would be impressed by my strength, and would overlook my imperfections. Hot damn! That sounds great. However, I can be pretty lazy sometimes. Is that strong? How do I be genuine to myself without having over exertion? idk. So I'm looking into what it means to be strong. The word comes from the German "Strang/String" which means, respectively, a cord or to connect things. From an English dictionary it means, in relation to character, "Showing determination, self-control, and good judgement." So trying to put together some direction in my life, trying to go with the flow of my chi as it's been revealed to me by the I Ching, I guess I need to, with my best judgement, determine some characteristics I would like to have, than manifest them as often as I can, stringing them together in time, by utilizing my self-control. Good luck me!
