I have not been on tengaged for about three years. I played frequently in high school and then got really busy and didn't have time for it. I graduated and went to college for a year and moved out with a roommate this past July. Now this a long story, but please bare with me. I'll refer to my roommate as Tim. Well, Tim and I had been living okay together. He was a little rude and I chalked it up to his past living experiences. He had history of abuse, so I was understanding of him. He had money issues, and I had lent him a thousand dollars because I understood how horribly he had been off and I was relatively okay. Well, a couple months in, we solved some deep issues he was having with his past roommate which was full of sexual and physical abuse. And Tim had cared deeply about him and believed he was his best friend. I made sure he never came around and never spoke to Tim. We had a really good period of time together, and then we ended up hooking up one night. I had always found him attractive and I felt he kind of saw me the same way in some instances and in other he did not. The sex was not full blown, but it happened still. He had acted afterwards like it didn't happen and I wanted to discuss it and put it behind us. We talked four days later and things were yet again fine. But i felt something was off. He was lying about something. When he talked, he kept talking about how much he regretted it and how he felt he ruined me. Those were words I wouldn't describe based on how things went down. I got curious. I ended up getting drunk when he was at work and went through his personal journal. Turns out, he had been planning to break our lease and was HIV positive the entire time we lived together. I went crazy. I ended up trying to kill himself when he got home and I ended up in a psych ward. I lied to him about the journal and said I had a family member die. To explain my hysteria. Two days after getting out of the hospital, I came clean to him and he tried to pepper spray and persisted on banging his head against the wall. I called the cops and he ran away and had moved out the following day. I have not seen Tim or heard from TIm since then. I loved him deeply and worried about him as we lived together. We were good friends, but friends don't do that to other people. He exposed me to HIV and had no intention on telling me had it, even after we had sex. I'm negative as of now and am getting tested again in two months. Thanks for reading guys and any questions or comments would be greatly appreciated. I've been feeling rough lately and this site helps me.
I need some kind of advice on here and yeah i know some will give legitimate, others won't i get that but i want a complete unbiased opinion on this topic. Okay guys, here it goes.
I am bisexual, i came out to about ten people while i was drunk off my ass at a party. And i had taken video of that so when i got to school I showed the video to people i trusted and stuff like that and I sort of let my drunk self come out. This isn't even relevant to my question but it's more of some context for it. Well i liked what i considered my closest guy friend, and i had catfished him sometime in November and it went nowhere. I tried to do it again sometime after I came out to him and I had almost catfished one of his friends but he found out. To get to the point I told him I was the catfisher and I had a crush on him. I apologized and stuff of that nature and he said it was no problem. Then I asked if he wanted any boundaries set since he knew how i felt, he said that wasn't necessary. It was awkward at first then it wasn't so I kept talking to him like nothing happened. Then I got a weird vibe from in about a month into after telling him and I asked him if anything was wrong with how I was talking to him and he told me no. Sometime after that I gave him money to go to a show with me and we went to that together, then I gave him a DVD of mine that I considered one of my prized possessions and let him borrow it. Then Three months after telling him I tried hitting on him while I was drunk. I apologized afterwards, he didn't answer. I then had felt he hated me as I had been skeptical for awhile so I deleted him off everything. Then I told him I was gonna distance myself and I blame myself for this and apologized. He said I was getting too attached and he was gonna distance himself. I asked when did you realize I was getting too attached. He said since I came out to him. So over these past three months, I gave him stuff, bought him stuff, told him some deep dark personal stuff and this whole time he didn't feel comfortable with me talking to him. And I wouldn't have been so mad if I never asked him if he was uncomfortable, BUT I DID MULTIPLE TIMES. So now I hate him with an unbridled passion and talking to my friends they believe I am in the wrong. Given it's biased because they know him and hes a people pleaser, the most inoffensive person I've ever known. So am I in the wrong for being mad and is he in part to blame for this? Am i fully to blame?
I know I made some bad mistakes along the line but I feel him leading me on to trusting him is the worst thing he ever could have done.
And I am not fabricating any of this because I am seeking an honest assessment of the situation, I am not exaggerating any part of this or trying to paint him to be the bad guy, this is how everything happened up until today.
Okay guys, I'm done. #Advice#Help
Last night had some pretty good strong acts
Again, a lot didn't stick and I really had high hopes for them
Particularly Myq Kaplan, who only made me chuckle once, he talked way too fast.
Then Animation Crew was boring imo.
BTW Howard Stern was completely right about DM nation, i thought they were the same and look the exact same as previous dance acts that came before them.
Arielle was damn near perfect, Really enjoyed Ira, Freckled Sky another really well done act, 3 Shades of blue were pretty nice, Derek keeps making me laugh and wowing me, and I know im forgetting some but those acts stuck with me the most.
The live show last night had some pretty good standouts, particularly Siro-A and Benton, both who were the only acts that stood out to me.
I really like Piff but he didn't do as good as he previously done, everyone else just was same ole same ole.
We'll see tonight who advances.
