It truly is sad how someone lets themselves get into their own head and refuses to give someone a REAL chance at a friendship after the person has genuinely changed and grown and has been trying to fix things for over a year (a literal year) but I guess you can’t control if someone lets their mind control something that isn’t real. I USED to be toxic as fuck, but I’ve sincerely apologized to the point of no return and it’s been accepted and acknowledged so saying “I used to be toxic as fuck” as leverage against me every time you’re upset IS toxic. Saying I’m doing things that aren’t actually real cause you’ve convinced yourself of them doesn’t make it reality. All I’ve done for over a year is try, try and try and it’s never been enough. It’s so disheartening and such a slap right across the face. Anyway I’m done I don’t even deserve this.
