Ok so, I don't intend on making this a long blog or anything, but I do have a few things to say.
Obviously, as you've all probably noticed, my track-record took a nosedive recently, and I would encounter people mentioning that I should go back to how I used to play.
Granted, when I came here, I was pretty successful right from the start, I won Link's season in my 2nd season ever (my first season was Dono's Borneo) and had proven myself to be a very competent and skilled player from there on, piling up another 4 victories for a total of 5, as well as taking part and having a strong influence on the outcome of some great seasons hosted by Tengaged's best. Now, however, I feel like I have fallen off the wagon for a bit. This is especially after my two back to back losses in the final 3 of Suitman13 seasons, and getting voted out in 19th place in KidA season, because of which I'm starting to feel that maybe I lost my mojo. I still pretty much play the same way, I am still loyal to a good extent, strategically sound, and I make connections with people, but I feel like because of how many times I have played, people who don't necessarily liked me are piling up in numbers and even when I play good games, they're finding it hard to vote for me in the FTC or even trust me.
This is not a goodbye blog because I'm not really leaving. But as you can see I haven't been as active as before. Part of this is because I am busy since I have both an official job in the morning and I run my own business at night, because I have to work double now since my dad's passing so I really barely have any free time and whenever I do encounter some free time I spent them either with my friends, my family, or I make up for the few sleeping hours I'm getting. But another part of isn't that active anymore because group games are becoming so .. personal and hostile. Those who know me know that I am pretty much as vocal as they come, but watching KidA's Norway following my elimination reminded me of why I distanced myself a little bit. There's some merit in taking the games seriously because we all love this game, but then there are some people who mistake this for real life and cross a few lines that are really not worth it. I'll still probably play a few games here and there, but it will be a lot less compared to how I was, at least for now.
So, I just felt like I should explain why I'm not as active as before, and express some of my disappointments in how I've performed in my last few seasons.
But everyone has a unique comeback story, and who knows when and how mine will start.
Everyone has rough patches man, and I know I haven't even got near a finals in over a year, but keep pushing man. The game gets harder every day because people know your ole tricks, but all it takes this is that one great group game that you can get stuck into to find that old Chastain. We all know you're a great player - which is the only reason you're less succesful. The better you get the harder it gets.
I understand where you are coming from man. I haven't won a game in around a year and it sucks but i still enjoy playing from time to time.
I hope your business goes well though :D
And sorry to hear about the passing of your father :(
