A few days ago, I played a Roblox game called Eviction Notice with many people including DaddyDev and ZLilly831 that had an 'Assassins' twist included in it. The 'Assassins' twist was that each of us was given a target we were meant to eliminate during the course of the game. There came a point in the game where I won Head of Household and after one of my original nominations won Veto and used it, I had to put a new nominee up. My target for the game was ZLilly831 and in an attempt to get Lilly out, I nominated DaddyDev as a pawn with the belief that everyone in the game hated Lilly enough that they would ignore Dev and snipe Lilly for me. To my utter horror, Dev was evicted instead and he subsequently cussed me out via Discord, unfriended me, and blocked me.
He has not talked to me since the game and I regret hurting him. I don't understand why things are the way they are right now between us, but I can't fix it. Dev and I used to be close, but I think that the closeness between us is gone and I hate it. He hates me to this day and I can't even have any happiness about the fact that I won HoH in an Eviction Notice, which is RARE for me, because Dev is trolling, trashing, bashing, and openly expressing hatred towards me every chance he gets in the little Discord chat we are in together.
I want to have Dev's friendship back, but at the same time, if he were really a friend, he would be able to understand that Eviction Notice is just a game and be able to move on from it without being hateful. Friends are supposed to be able to compete in games and then move past them still being friends, right?
Can someone explain to me why people dare to get so mad at me for daring to assert myself in games when they used to mock me endlessly and mercilessly for being a useless sheep? I want to have joy in the fact that I am becoming less dependent on others in games and more resilient, but it's really hard because Dev and others in the Discord chat pretty much smash the life out of me verbally for daring to grow as a gamer. Am I wrong for wanting to grow as a gamer and speak out when I feel it is my right to do so?
