July 25, 2020
It's the day after Sequester: Heroes vs. Villains and I'm just now learning through chatting with some of those I played the game with the first time that some quirkiness I displayed in the waiting room prior to the game was the subject of gossip among the entire cast last night once the game started. It was also a reason I was targeted.
I have ADHD and NVLD, which the Production cast already knew about and they liked it. According to what the others in my waiting room said, however, I was disrespectful and unable to act like a normal Sequester player should while waiting for the game to start. My unique, quirky behavior was obviously a problem for my first room-mates last night. I sometimes display quirky behavior and it makes people uncomfortable, but they weren't grown up enough to come to me about it. They JUST HAD to gossip about it to others.
One of the people in my initial room last night was Lisa Stanger, winner of Survivor New Zealand: Season 2, and I know my kind of disabilities aren't widely discussed on an international scale, so it must have frightened her to see me acting quirky. Another person in my room was Hunter Ince, a guy I play Roblox with several times a week, and I thought we were friends. Perhaps I was mistaken since he exploited what he knew about my disability to help himself get further in the game instead of standing up for me and/or helping me find a way to stick around.
Now that I know that it was my tics that made people uncomfortable enough to get me eliminated from Sequester early on, I find myself so frustrated that it's 2020 and so few are willing to have conversations with and about people with disabilities. wasn't being disrespectful to the hosts in the pregame waiting area, but people took it that way and exploited my quirks into a reason that I should go early. I was doing nothing but existing as a person with a social disability last night and people didn't like it.
I love Sequester and any chance I get to play it, but I am very bothered by the fact that nobody felt comfortable enough to talk to me about the pregame quirkiness last night, but they had no issue going to other rooms and using it as an excuse to get me eliminated. I hope that in future games, people can work with me and my quirks instead of fearing what they don’t understand enough to get away from it as fast as they can.
