I know my value and I know that I'm valuable to God, but I really hate how others treat me because I'm not 'of the norm.' I've experienced over three decades of people running and shunning me, making every effort they can to keep as far away from me as they can, engaging in hateful/hurtful gossip about me for their own amusement, and ostracizing me like I'm some terrible sinner just because I have a social/learning disability that they don't understand. Having the type of disability I do does not make me a terrible sinner and I did not end up this way because I committed some terrible sin. I am a child of God and it's a tragedy that not everyone who professes to believe in God can see the error in how they treat me, one of His many beloved children.
As I have evolved, I've seen people go to amazingly incredible efforts to keep away from me, shun me, gossip about me to the point where I lose social or other opportunities, and be outright disgusting people. I'm sure there's something better all of you bullies and bigots could be doing with your time, so why are you wasting every waking minute of your short lives endeavouring to make my life as miserable as possible? People have even gone as far as pretending they are my friend, fully taking advantage of my kind and trusting nature, and act like they care about me just to make fun of me and/or trash me behind my back later on! If they don't do that, they try to control me using our so called bond as friends to get me to do what they want me to do or become. If I refuse, they run and trash me however they can to whomever will listen.
I can tell you right now that behaving in all those disgusting, unChristlike ways is a HUGE waste of time, time that could be spent doing more productive things. What is it exactly that attracts people to behave that way to me, about me, and towards me? I've been trying to figure that out for so long and I haven't been able to yet, so I could really use some insight. Does anyone have any insight to give?
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People who are worth your time or thoughts or energy will not judge you for your looks or whatever it is that makes you 'not normal'. That said, a lot of people who dont care about others' looks and stuff also dont wanna deal with drama or overly demanding people so dont expect that of them i guess? idk but it's good that you're confident in yourself and you just need a few people who will be good to you in life. Quality > quantity. It's easy to say not to let it get to you - i know it's hard not to let others' words get to you. I guess if it bothers you, as long as you find a way to get over it and realize they're not worth your time, it's ok if it upsets you. Just focus on doing what makes you happy and will make you healthy / successful (whatever your definition of that is) in life.
