I have something to share
1stApr 11, 2019
- I've honestly never told anyone this until today, scared of people thinking I'd use it to make excuses, or that I'm being an attention seeker. But, i've come to learn that it's important to talk about your life and be thankful for everything you have. So here's the story:
When I was born, I had heart complications. I had heart murmurs right from birth. A heart murmur is when an unusual sound is heard between heartbeats. Murmurs sometimes sound like a whooshing or swishing noise. They can potentially be dangerous and my mom was super scared.
Every year from then on since I was born, I've done a chest ultrasound and have had to put on a heart monitor for 48 hours. My parents had me a year after they came to Canada and both worked full time jobs and didn't have enough time to care for me. My grandma, my biggest inspiration and my favourite person on this planet would take care of me. From when I was a newborn, to when she was a 50 year old who held me in one arm and held my cousin's hand with her other arm, walking my cousin to the bus stop in the midst of winter.
The murmur isn't completely gone. It goes away over time and a small one is still in me. I won't lie, each time I go to get a check up done, I'm scared that it may have gotten worse. Today, was the day for the heart monitor. I had been dreading it for a while and I'm now wearing it. The heart monitor is TERRIBLE. I have to keep the tape and cords on me for 48 hours without running, showering or taking it off of me. My skin itches and it makes me anxious and I cant sleep properly.
But most of me, is thankful. Thankful for my parents who worked their butts off as immigrants and now are a teacher and a dispatch for a trucking company. They worked so hard for me and my sister to have the great life we have. Thankful for my grandma, the most hardworking woman I know who took care of me for years. Thankful to my doctor, who has greeted me with a big smile for 15 years of check ups. Thankful for the friends I have irl and on here who support and love me <3
Having a heart murmur has taught me that you should not take life for granted. Sitting online and attacking people is pointless. We should all learn to love each other a bit more and pick people up when they are down. I want to thank a few friends for caring about me and helping me whenever I've needed that person to console me:
That's all I wanted to say. Sorry for the wrong blog but just felt like sharing.
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