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Big Brother and online Hunger games.

K I'm gonna get personal

Mar 18, 2021 by BigMamaT
The one thing I miss about Tengaged is the blogging system.

I have to blog this...

In September, I started the process of having the gastric bypass. I went through the pre-op blood work (the chalk crap was NASTY) and lost some weight. And then....I was hospitalized for cellulitis and sepsis and was battling again....

I came out ok, even though you cannot see my tattoo on my right leg anymore. Things kinda crawled a long during the holidays...and then I found out that I have a tumor on left adrenal gland, and the oncologist is treating it as if it is cancer because of the size, density, all that jazz...

The silver lining is, it has not spread and it is localized to my adrenal gland. My oncologist then informed me that he wanted me to have the gastric sleeve done, versus the bypass, so they can reach my adrenal gland easier, and then go back to have gastric bypass afterwards.

I reluctantly agreed, but I researched the gastric sleeve, and my sister and I (who was also going for gastric bypass) both agreed that the sleeve would be a better option.

And then Sherry died. I felt like my life was over at that point. Sherry was my blood sister, my best friend...my tag-team partner. We did everything together. We were each other's support during this surgery. Now I have no one :(

Anyway, I'm totally at a crossroads. I was supposed to weigh-in today at the Nutritionist and I decided that I'm going to take a couple of months off from the surgery prep. I just have so much on my plate, that isn't food for once. I think my mental health and my grieving need to take forefront.

Thanks for reading. I really miss you guys....

Comments

oh my god, you're really going through a lot. I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your sister. I lost my dad recently and I know how hard it must be losing your support system. I know it's really hard but try to stay strong!! focus on yourself and do what's best for you. can the tumor be treated without having any surgery done??

You're amazing bigmamaT and one of the nicest and most generous people I have met on this site. I know you've been through a lot but I know miss tinabeena and you can pull through!
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