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I don't blog. I don't do shops. I am not enrolled in 3 games at once. Tengaged was that for me up until a year ago. Now, I'm not on as much anymore but I stay around as much I can because I don't want to leave the people, many of whom have become great friends in the past (almost) three years. Stars is based a lot on popularity so I know chances aren't as good as they once could of been, but I am here to try and fight and beat those odds.
The moment this stars began, all I could think was "FUCK!"
And that's pretty much how it continued to be up until now - Day 8. I find myself next to Kez, one of my best friends on here. Obviously that wouldn't go unnoticed forever so I am shocked to see that it's finally for 8th and not 16th, 14th, 11th, 10th, 9th like it, at one point, was supposed to be.
During the morning/afternoon days, I am at work and do not get home until a half hour before day change. It has been brutal trying to stay in the know with what's going on, and even more difficult to suppress people's thoughts about putting me up when all I have is an Iphone and ping chat. When I get home, I have to do two days worth of work to secure a spot the next day, which, as much as people talk never usually works out.
So as I sit here, it's almost a relief. A day where I feel I don't have to worry that much about the immediate following day, meaning, if I survive I can restart this fire that will hopefully last me to the end.
Lines have been drawn, and, while I may have lost people's trust in this game, I didn't lose friendships. In fact, I made some new ones (Shayy, especially). So I can now play this game 100% strategically and not personally, and I honestly can't wait.
For the hardest stars I've ever had to play, not too shabby so far. Kez you're incredible and it sucks to be up against you at this time. But, whoever goes, it won't be a completely bitter result. Good luck my love.
Alex, you're beautiful in every way, It breaks my heart being against you :(
Whatever happens Ik it will never affect our friendship and if I leave i'm campaigning for you til the end <33333