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Big Brother and online Hunger games.

I was in the winter of my life

Apr 17, 2020 by Aidan0621
And the men I met along the road were my only summer
At night I fell asleep with visions of myself dancing and laughing and crying with them
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me鈥ˋnd my only real happy times

I was a singer鈥∟ot a very popular one鈥↖ once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet
But upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky鈥═hat I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken鈥˙ut I didn鈥檛 really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is

When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing how I had been living, they asked me why, but there鈥檚 no use in talking to people who have a home鈥═hey have no idea what its like to seek safety in other people鈥‵or home to be wherever you lie your head

I was always an unusual girl鈥∕y mother told me that I had a chameleon soul鈥∟o moral compass pointing due north鈥∟o fixed personality
Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean鈥ˋnd if I said I didn鈥檛 plan for it to turn out this way I鈥檇 be lying

Because I was born to be the other woman
Who belonged to no one鈥╓ho belonged to everyone鈥╓ho had nothing鈥╓ho wanted everything
With a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn鈥檛 even talk about it鈥ˋnd pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me

Every night I used to pray that I鈥檇 find my people
And finally I did
On the open road
We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore
Except to make our lives into a work of art

Live fast
Die young
Be wild
And have fun

I believe in the country America used to be
I believe in the person I want to become
I believe in the freedom of the open road
And my motto is the same as ever
"I believe in the kindness of strangers"

And when I'm at war with myself
I ride
I just ride

Who are you?
Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?

I have
I am fucking crazy
But I am free

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